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Acid rain

What if it rains?

What if it pours?

When do I decide

If I want to live anymore?

How do I breathe

If my throat is compressed?

How do I think

If I blow my mind to shreds?

Could I scream

If no one cared to hear?

Can there be peace

If a war wages deep in my soul?

How can I raise Hell

Against what hurts if I am there?

What if I die here

In pain without a cause to be?

Is it worth living

In a hellish crucible of misery?

Can I fall backwards

Into dreams that died alone in the dark?

Should I travel in my mind

To a place of warmth my soul cannot be?

Or can I just disappear

Fade away, never be, never know?




…Balanced there, suicides sometimes meet,
raging at the fruit, a pumped-up moon,
leaving the bread they mistook for a kiss,

leaving the page of the book carelessly open,
something unsaid, the phone off the hook
and the love, whatever it was, an infection…

An infection …But even your shimmer
Your glistening shine
Cannot penetrate this blackness
That is eternally mine
So today is a dark day
A day full of woes
Failing to fight my
Ghosts and foes
And although you stand beside me love
All golden and pure
Your strength cannot pull me
Back from its lure
So let me sit and wallow
In my plight
For tomorrow I can follow
Your guiding light.


Some days ,
I feel everything at once.
Other days ,
I feel nothing at all.

I don’t know what’s worse:
Drowning beneath the waves 
Or dying from the thirst.

Words , words …Coming like venom

Crushing feelings meant to be shared,
crushing dreams not yet able to fly,
   crushing words between pages.
   Words simply stumbling
       Falling onto the ground..
I moved the curtain
  And there it was
    ImagesPatiently watching over me –

Happiness : Is it real !

Might I embrace you and hold you dear

Dear to my heart which leaps for joy?

Theres’ a grace in your step-

A shine in your eye

A wispy smile across your fair face

Your voice breaks the silence

That oppresses like an ancient tomb

And dashes it against a stone of goodwill

Alas, you leave as you came, in a frenzy

Without rhyme nor reason

But let it be so- let it be so

For if you were never absent

would never know you !